Yesterday my ex boyfriend and I went our separate ways, which has eaten me up, but it’s where I am now and I don’t think there’s anything I can do about it except try to be better for the future.
Last night was a really difficult night on air, but I made it through it with the support of my awesome listeners and my passion for my job.
When I got home I decided to drink some wine to numb my feelings, but after one glass I gave up on drinking. I realized drinking was going to do nothing to fix anything and would only make me feel worse. Not to mention the added calories that I don’t need.
I blame some of the issues we had on me. A lot of them had to do with a loss of self-confidence because of the weight I have gained which made me feel inadequate and insecure. Not to mention my seasonal depression and whatever smaller issues that we already had with our relationship. I am glad that I had already noticed part of this and tried to start working on getting better. It just didn’t come soon enough.
I learned many lessons, and I’m heartbroken. I wish I could change how things ended.
Now it’s time to focus on me and buckle down on my weight loss and getting fit mentally and physically.
I’ve been through it before. The last time this happened I got down to it and KICKED BUTT. I lost a lot of weight and was probably the most fit I had ever been. Not only was I doing amazing physically, I was doing great mentally.
This time I have already started on my journey. I recognized the problem and already started to improve myself. These apps have helped me stay on track so far, even though I’ve had a few cheat days (oops!)
So far I’ve lost about 5 pounds since I’ve started monitoring my food intake and exercising more often.
As much as it sucks, I’m trying to make the best of it. I think focusing on me is really going to help.
Side note, I bought this Balance Disc the other day. It’s kind of like a yoga ball that goes on my chair at work. I’ve used it for a couple of days now and have noticed a change in my posture already. It apparently helps with your core too. You can get it here. Let me know if you try it out.
Have you ever been on a heartbreak diet? What changed? Was it coincidental or were you actually trying? Let me know in the comments below
These are the songs that are kind of getting me through this mess.
Betty Who – Missing You
Maroon 5 – Wait
Katy Perry – The One That Got Away
Toni Braxton – Un-Break My Heart
Lady Antebellum – Need You Now
Rascal Flatts – What Hurts The Most
Adele – All I Ask
Caitlyn Smith – Tacoma (suggestion by Jeb)
What songs are on your heartbreak playlist? Drop them in the comments below. I’ll be updating this as I go.